Can't see nothing but cold

Feelings of nothing but sorrow and pain

I can’t help but floor this gas till i can't

Maybe one day i’ll reach the end of this road, it’ll catch me by surprise, can’t get out of the car

I’ll keep going far

I’ll try my best to keep my eyes peeled while this path is clouded i know in my heart it’s far from it’s end, i don’t need to see to floor it, my whole style is on mortgage till the end but i’ll avoid those trees until my mind is on fire from the speed, my body’s in dismay

Honey, come take this pain away

I can’t stand the dreams of you holding me to sleep after a long day’s journey through the country of old memories that i thought we’d get to keep and visit forever, but it’s all gone and that’s fine all highs are temporary, i just hope i’ll feel another before i lose my mind and spiral down like the trains of thought derailed in my mind

Like the cravings that i hide

Or try to but they seep out of my eyes

And my skin and my bones i can feel a burning in my chest but it’s not unusual, it’s quite natural

I feel it everyday and try my best to keep the straight and narrow as my path, but everything i touch becomes a mess, every thought that i have becomes 10 could you please just get out of my head, old friend? i thought i buried you a long time ago, but the hatchet finds it’s way out slits my wrists and lets the blood flow wild

Can’t you see, my child? you’ll never understand, until you wish you didn’t have to and you’re deep in a trench, can’t help yourself or the things around you

My life has ended

Even though it just began

I sit in silence

In my bed my thoughts grow thin

As my breathing

Slows close to nothing i can’t ever win

This battle unless i somehow get cut off

Making a conscious effort feels like a waste of time

I love the nothingness

Nothing memorable or special about getting fucked up every single day

Don’t spend no time dwelling on the last night i was fucked up

I can’t remember the last time i wasn’t fucked up, no

I can’t even count the days so much time

Spent in a haze

It feels like a waste

To even feel a thing at all

My baby doll, V

Please lay me to sleep, i can’t get no peace

I think the end is near

Im a disappointment that’s clear

Wrote and arranged this whole ep in one session

Maybe a few songs i had the bones of before

But my hyperfixation kicked in and now i’m flooring it

Lyrics i wrote got me drifting like

Do re mi!!

I can’t help but feel like you’re abandoning me but it’s not nothing new the isolation’s almost comforting

Why can’t i feel time the way it is? every single day it’s like it’s fluctuating, someone fucking with a dial i’ve learned to not even keep track it’s often i don’t know what day it is, cause what does it matter? i’ll neglect the things i was sposed to have done, cause they’re not what i want

My mind puts up a mental block

That getting past is like picking some concrete up

I’m trying but it’s hard, just give me a little time but i know it’s been so long

I’ve made so much progress, been through so much nonsense behind the scenes the underside of my bed is finally clean

My minds clear, the times right

I think i’m finally ready for ya lord bring this fight

From internal pain to eternal glory