I held my grandmas hand while she passed away

So weak she couldn't even speak, so much i had to say

I screamed out i love you

She said i love you back

And Those were the last words she spoke i hear em to this day

I swear after she left all it did was rain

This shit a different pain

I would break a pill down and sniff it up until i felt the shit hit my veins

I became distant strange

And disengaged

Like a book with missing pages

Nothing makes sense

It isnt thе same

Tryna contain my anger

In a fit of rage

You shouldn't keep a dog in a cagе

Its just inhumane

Cuz every chance he gets hes gonna break the chains

And run away

I wish my grandma could come back and that shit fills me with sadness

All i have is these pictures

And broken memories shattered

Every holiday and birthday

That i had after that was never the same

It left a hole in me

It led me to patterns

Of bad behavior

I was headed down the path of an addict

And not a single fucking person couldve stopped it from happening

I had to look myself in the eyes

What the fuck are you doing

With your life

Youre gonna crash

And be another RIP caption

And then my cousin fell directly in that path

Im at his funeral

Like how the fuck this happen

When my grandpa told me

All that i remember

Is collapsing to the floor

And now the world dont feel so happy anymore

Finding happiness is war

It attacks me at the core

We got the same 24 hours

But i actually perform

I can't afford to break my form

Its like of course they gonna hate

I stay on course and im a force to be reckoned with

All this shit you force

Is effortless to me

Since i was born

I had to learn to break the norm

And now i got to learn to mourn

The loss of people i adored

Confront the things i thought i knew

I will shield you from the storm

I keep pushing forward

I keep on fighting this war

I dont think you know what you fighting for

I will never lose sight

I will fight until my heart gives out and i fall right on the floor

Rest my burdens

My cosuin wasn't a bad person

He was just a person

You ain't perfect

Im tryna rap with a purpose

I bust my ass on these verses

Im sure that

I can rap circles

ARound these rappers you worship

No matter how you word it

I was determined

No diversion could ever

Stop me

If this was ball

Im iverson

Nothing touching any of

My verses

Your efforts are all worthless

Futile

You can't stop me from my purpose

I percervere

I push the boundary

I put the work in

I cook the beat

You think this shit was bunses burner

Im unccncerend with you rappers

Im concerned with learning

I push myself further

Than all of you bitches

I fucking earned it

Im purging

These fake rappers

The rapture is coming early

It just occured to me

I did all this shit before i was 30

And i still ain't make it

Am i unworthy

Nah im unworried

Let me wash this mic real quick

Bro im spitting too dirty

I wake up early for work

You falling asleep off them perkys

That shit is pitiful

You need fix that shit

Quick fast in a hurry

I spit in the fucking face of adversity

If you know me but dont play my songs

I take that shit personally

Yall dont even wanna help your friends get currency

Are you currently working

Do yo kids have enough food to eat

We all dyin of thirst

Who gonnbe dead on news this week

Theres more important things

Than you and me

Despite what you believe

But if it all falls right now

I wonder who you would be

I just smoked the whole pound

Made a P decision

Bro putting chickens in the wrap

You think its pita kitchen

If you ain't hearing what im saying then you need to listen

Im pissing greatness

Im pissed that i never fit in

I feel the fucking rage in my stomach

I hold the shit in

Im the only person that could put myself in this position

My cousin gone and i miss him

My spirit is so driven

I can still go the distance

No pole in the whip

Unless ricky going fishing

I ain't tryna be like my family

And end up in prison

But i will still stand behind these bars bitch its richard

How about you rap about some shit with content

Get a conscience

And stop watching what im doing

Mind yo business

Speaking of business

Get a job

And buy yo kids some shit for christmas

Man you bitches piss me off

Hitting whippets

Someone should whip yo dumb ass

Im not complicit with that shit

Which is why im trying to get it through your head

This shit is fucking with your brain you need to fix it

You can't even envisoin a rap

That isnt about switches

Shit the only fucking thing im worried about is going fishing

Now you thinking grab the pole

Thats the problem withcho mind

You thinking 9s and 44s

Im thinking yall need to find

A higher purpose fo yo soul

You thinking gold chains

Im thinking setting some fucking goals

For yourself

So you can know

Maybe how yo momma felt

Raising yo ass on her own

And you can give yo baby momma some help

Could you keep on climbing the rope

With this flame held to you

I highly doubt it

You highly flammable

Im bullet proof

So take yo shots at me

Ill take my shot at the moon

Im tryna take it all

What is all this shit worth to you

I would tear down the four walls of this booth

Let you see the real me

Let you really see the truth

Im giving you the tools

Yall just gotta put em to use

And build something

And for the record that punk bitch dave is lucky that i ain't punch him

Right in his fucking face

You make me sick to my stomach you snake bitch

Oh and i almost forgot to say this

Its still fuck my dad that ain't changing

I do this shit

On a every day basis

Basically what im saying

Is i won't stop til they put me in a grave bitch

You could never obtain this

Level of greatness

And thats why they hate rick