Dearest me

I’m writing this in the vain hope that it will help

Although I fear the opposite effect

Here I stand, on this hotel balcony ledge

With three feet of cable wrapped around my neck

I am heavy with you

I am heavy with you

Dearest friend

This is not the sign of a healthy mind;

I cannot sleep until the day is won

Looking west, it is six o’clock and it is dusk

And so I fear that I will follow the sun

I am heavy with you

I am heavy with you

I am heavy with you

I am heavy with you

Everything is as it should be

I’ve seen this view before

To everyone who says they love me

Don’t say you’ve not been warned

Everything is as it was

The words that stop my fall

The words that stop my fall

I cannot change

I’ve never been afraid of anything

I’ve done this before and I’ll do it again

Every day

The same lost thoughts the same cold place

Can't you see

These evenings are long, we are disappearing friend

I am heavy with you

I am heavy with you

I am heavy with you

Everything is as it should be

(I am heavy with you)

Everything is as it was

Everything is as it should be

(I am heavy with you)

Everything is as it was

I am heavy with you

(I am heavy with you,)

I am heavy with you

(I am heavy with you,)

I am heavy with you