Negativity - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I used to get laughed at, but now they're getting laughed at, because they're always last on

I really thought that I was safe that night, because I locked the front door, but I never checked the back one

I remember ringing all of my friends, and telling them "I think this is the end, I'm under attack don"

And there weren't nobody there, but I swallowed all my fear, and just know it wasn't me getting whacked on

Remember thinking I was blessed, with that quarter in my pocket, til' I ended up in a cell in a black top

Watch when I get that portion in my pocket, imma put a quarter in a rocket then i'm gonna blast off

I remember feet up on my sofa, but I know them days are over, I just gotta get my graft on

People say that you're a psycho, because you got a lot of pain, and they wonder why you're rolling with a mask on

When I found out I had a kid on the way, big smile on my face, I was overly excited

Until I came home to that dead look, on my girlfriends face, and nobody was invited

I knew what was coming, but I never wanted to accept it, so I wiped the water from my eyelids

And then she told me that our baby ain't coming, now i'm face down on my bathroom floor crying

And I just wanna get through all this onslaught, Dad never sees her because he always wants war

With her mum, when he comes to the crib, and now she's tryna' cover the pain on her face with her contour

Had a wish, she be wishing she had one more, she's got a quid, but she's wishing she had one more

Reminiscing about all of the times, when she used to have her man, by her side, on them long walks

Reminiscing about all of the times, when her life used to be alright, now it's all a trainwreck

A lot of people say they wanna do you better, but when you put it together, they just wanna get a pay cheque

If you don't wanna put the work in, then don't look around and wonder why there ain't nobody getting paid yet

But when you've worked hard for it your whole life, and you still ain't got it right, that'll send you all insane (yeah, but)

Negativity, I'm like not today, so I don't wanna hear you say [who they?]

I'm just praying that I see a new day, I'm just praying that I see a new day

Negativity, I'm like not today, so I don't wanna hear you say [who they?]

I'm just praying that I see a new day, I'm just praying that I see a new day

It's dark in this world they don't wanna see light, trust nobody really cares what you feel like

But I gotta keep telling myself it's alright, yeah I gotta keep telling myself it's alright, because

Negativity, I'm like not today, so I don't wanna hear you say [who they?]

I'm just praying that I see a new day, I'm just praying that I see a new day

I wanna get that happiness where I can walk around a small bedroom and it'll feel like a mansion

You say that God won't answer your prayers, nah, you're just ignorant and won't listen to the answers

Don't pretend to be mt firend, when you're acting like my enemy, you mandem are a bunch of ballet dancers

And I ain't claiming to be perfect, so anybody that has ever helped me, imma say it now, I thank them

I found out I had a third kid on the way, this time no smile on my face, no excitement

I'm looking up into the sky, saying please don't push me now, I got this massive outburst of violence

I'm still sitting on the pain that I got from losing my first child, how'm I supposed to be excited?

Every time that I come into the crib, it was a place that I didn't wanna sit, cos' it was always silent

But things started to get a little better, little bit of bad weather, but that weather weren't lightning

Waking up happy in the morning, I thought that everything was better because I was always fighting

I came home for the second time, I didn't recognise my girls face, she was crying

She told me that we've lost our second baby, and now i'm going crazy, I felt like I was dying

I stepped out of my door onto the road, ambulance flew by, and I couldn't even hear the sirens

Stepping into a room full of people, everybody talking up, but all I could hear is silence

And now we're stuck with this pain, we can't get it off our chest, 'cah it's buried way deep down inside us

But I know our days are gonna get better, so I'm gonna keep on singing like this (like this)