Intentions of violence

I spiralled insane

I know I can't gain what I lost in the mist

Wish I didn't exist like I'm lain

I'm on my iwakura shit you lames just couldn't slide with this

I got a scythe ready slice through some veins or arteries

All the same when I hit you first time just know that you are gone tonight

A samurai didn't have to cry

Normal suicidal thoughts but I didn't wanna die

Since the day that my heart froze its been all the same

Other than June when it changed for about a day

Always subsided the skies remain grey

My question to god is for what do I pay

Stay in my bed all the day and I lay

Questioning will this pain always remain

Cowardice mess with my prowess's

Body so cold like I got sleep paralysis

Now again I cannot move

To the side of my life where the lights shining through and I'm tired and sick of it.....

Hoping I've been through the thick of it but every time that I think nothing is worse

I'm struck by a dagger and oh lord it hurts as I feel my blood disperse