Yeah, sitting inside of my car in dark and blast instrumentals

Seeing the lights of the city just really don’t move me

I need some peace and some quiet

I hate that I’m like this

I’m looking for change I promise I’m trying

Mentioned the love that I had for you I wasn’t lying

Making mistakes but I promise I’m trying

I want you know that I got a lot of love for you got a lot of trust for you

Yeah, You said that you weren’t a fan of much books but you learned to read me

I’m always scared to get back on my feet

Always wondering who I should be

Always avoided being detrimental cause I want to get to my dreams

But I’m asking my self if is it all worth it if I don’t get to be me

I just want some love and release

Hate second guessing the way I should be

Hate people altering the way that I think and the way I believe

I just need a moment let me be let me breathe I’m getting sick and tired of all the people draining all my energy

Trynna put me down just because they envy me

They don’t wanna see me alive they don’t wanna see me thrive

They just rather see me die

All they ever do is feed me lie after lie

Am I loosing my mind am I waisting my time?

All I know is that I’m broke

Not from the money I don’t have but from the lies that you sold

All these felling that I’m feeling I got to let it go

Man this is getting old

I act like I’m strong and I’m bold but I need some one to hold I feel like I’m loosing control

Yeah, I just need some one to hold

Feel like I’m loosing control

Over thinking my thoughts in the night

Hoping that I’ll find the light

Even when there nothing in sight

I’ll keep on fighting

I’ll keep on thriving

I’ll keep on shinning

I’ll keep on trying

I’ll keep on smiling

And keep my head up

I’ll keep on fighting

I’ll keep on thriving

I’ll keep on shinning

I’ll keep on trying

I’ll keep on smiling

And keeping my head up

Yeah, got a couple a burdens that I wish I could let go

Wishing I could rest though

I’ve been living Life to fast

Trynna get my life together started asking where the clues at?

Knocking on my door I’ma answer with a whose that?

You say you got the keys?

Ima recommend you loose that

Say you’re here to help me?

I’ma need a little more I’m gonna need you to prove that

Trying to fix the puzzle but to

Busy finding peace’s

For the last couple weeks yeah, I’ve been feeling sleepless I’ve been feeling speechless

I’ve been trynna to find the reasons

I’ve been going to church but I space out when he preaches

I’m trying to find the answers but I don’t know where to start

Pray to God and ask him to take me out the dark

I feel like I’m driving but I put the car in park cause I ain’t going no where

All this weight on my chest yeah, I got to let it go

Man this getting old I act like I’m strong and I’m bold but I just need someone to hold I feel like I’m loosing control

I ask God to give me a whole lot of strength and a whole lot of faith

Cause that’s what I’m needing at the end of the day

I’m at a point in my life where Im ready to look for change

I ready to turn the page

I’m ready to share my music when I hop up on the stage

One thing I’ll never do is put a different face and pretend to be happy

I will not put a smile on my face and pretend to be happy

I Will not sit in a room and pretend to be laughing

I will not sit in a room and pretend to enjoy the time that I’m having

But Ill go to my room and commence with my rapping

Talking about the way that I feel

Talking about the processes I went through in order to heal

Talking about the happiness they tried to steal

The things that I’m writing are the way that I feel

The things that I wrote are very surreal

But I know one day I’ll cheer and say I finally made it

With the fans going wild and also relating

Or maybe I’m crazy?

Maybe they can care less about the songs that I’m making?

This is the process it took me in order to make this

Over thinking for me can tend to get dangerous

So I’m learning to stop that

Flipping my no’s to Im on that

Working so hard I don’t know where at

Picking myself up on the days when I fall flat

Picking myself up on the days that I fall back

Checking myself on the days where I’m of track

Starting to slow more things down

And started to think

What is the point of all this if I’m not even happy with me?

I don’t care about being much richer I just want to find the purpose and person in me

Forget all the money and fame that isn’t for me

Kind of ironic cause the career that I’m chasing and trynna succeed

Figuring the right things for me

Asking my self what are the things I that I actually need in my life

Love and compassion is what I genuinely need

I just need a moment to Breathe

I Just need a moment to think

Give me a second to let me be me

(that’s real)