[Intro]
[Chorus: Will Mannay]
You told me to smile, how can I smile?
My kind heart turned into a fight
A fight to live, a fight to breathe
My brain can't handle this defeat
Just turn back the clocks to when I was 13
I needed to see, I had a life where I could breathe
And now I'm so fucked up I'm not even feeling the heat
[Refrain: SP!KE]
I really don't want to die on you
Let's be honest though I'm human too
I need a minute just to think about stuff
I need a minute just to be with you
Don't act all sad, don't act all tough
I know that deep down you're so fucked
I know that deep down you give no fucks
Don't make it seem like I fucked up
[Verse 1: SP!KE]
I've nevеr thought in this way before
But a sentimеntal monument got me to explore
I don't even know why I'm hungry for more
Knock at the door, I got the door
Who found me out, who found my house
It's all locked up not a soul or a mouse
Not a soul or a mouse yeah
Not a soul or a mouse
[Chorus: Will Mannay]
You told me to smile, how can I smile?
My kind heart turned into a fight
A fight to live, a fight to breathe
My brain can't handle this defeat
Just turn back the clocks to when I was 13
I needed to see, I had a life where I could breathe
And now I'm so fucked up I'm not even feeling the heat
[Verse 2: R0UG as R0UGZ]
I'm really gonna be honest with you this time
I got a pill that will get me through it this time
I know some dark magic, an evil type of shit
Something in the air that will make you fucking flinch
[Refrain: SP!KE]
I really don't want to die on you
Let's be honest though I'm human too
I need a minute just to think about stuff
I need a minute just to be with you
Don't act all sad, don't act all tough
I know that deep down you're so fucked
I know that deep down you give no fucks
Don't make it seem like I fucked up
“this time” is important here. Don’t do drugs they’ll only help the first time.
Fear and nervousness can get the best of you. What if there was nobody at the door?
I’m hungry for more pain like it’s a drug. Really it was just the “inside” me looking for something to latch onto thinking it would work out.
When SP!KE was explaining this line to me, he said he didn’t mean literally breathing, but we could all take a breath without anxiety filling our lungs.
I didn’t think so negatively when I was younger.