I never wanted it like this

I'm always ending up

Keeping it bottled up inside

Although it's not that good

Don't know why I find it so hard

To open up my mouth

Wish I could talk without being scared

Of what comes out

Sometimes I can't find the words to explain

Or I just don't know what I feel right now?

My mind's a mess

I can't think straight

Wish I didn't bother you

With the things I'm going through

Such a storm here

I can't make a thing out

Of what you're saying

I'm so far away

Something's I can't see where I'm heading to

Or I just don't want to realize?

I'm such a mess

I can't calm down

I'm not making any sense

And my mind is made of clay

Now all my words seemed to disappeared

And left me hollow, floating out of here

So where have I gone now?

And how can I call down?