[Verse]

Honestly I preferred depression

At least then my body wasn't in delusion

It was only my mind

But now it always feels like I got way too high

Maybe I shouldn't have done that

Every single day for an entire year of my life

I ask all these questions but avoid that

Maybe that's the reason behind the decline

This is the beginning of the motherfuckin end

Saying "Sayonara" to all of my friends

I've been steadily sinking for a long time now

Lookin up, nobody pulls me out

If I asked for help

Would that be too "attеntion horny" or what

Cause honestly I can't tell thе difference between what's self-help

And what is just fucked up

They say I need to get help

But you know what? I've had enough of it

Had enough therapists tryna help me on this

This isn't something that can just fixed

Nah, this is some life-long thing

Medication won't stop me from walking in the rain, uh

No, no, I don't need help

All that I need is friends to get me through hell

I can do this all on my own

Don't need nobody tryna kick me from my throne

Just throw me a bone

Kick me outta my home

I don't know how I'll go but I'll go and I'll show y'all

"Why are you doing this?" I got my reasons

"Sure that you got this?" I've learned to live in

A constant flowin' motion

Where I don't need stability

And I'm my own foundation

[Chorus]

I live off raw emotion

Maybe mind will hide what's on inside

I live off fear and impulsion and

I am fearing my own life

[Bridge]

I don't know what I'm doing

Nor I'll get through this

Whether or not it's alive

Overflowin emotions

I've rode the ocean

And only once did I die

[Chorus]

I live off raw emotion

Maybe mind will hide what's on inside

I live off fear and impulsion and

I am fearing my own life

Please hide