I tried ending my depression

With every studio session

Thinking everything around me should be straight

Then I get home

I feel alone

Dead in my bed for 7 days and it feel like The Ring

And I do hate

That I’m late

To every date

And occasion

Cause I’m outside

By my lonesome

Yeah I’m blazing

And I’m drinking

And erasing

Most of my memory

Fading with my patience

Escalating with my mind

And it’s amazing

All this time that I been wasting

Stuck in the concrete

Chasing pavement

Or paper chasing

Them paper cuts in her wrist was quiet statements

Mental escaping

Of sunken places

Gaps and spaces

Empty conversations

I haven’t been myself but you ain’t say shit

How could this be

Why you keep on playing with me

Tell me tell me how would you do

If the shit just falls back on you

And you just can’t keep playing these games

Fucking with my heart and my brain

Why oh why you do me this way

Hoping that one day you change

I haven’t been myself for like a month now

I pick the pen up and put the blunts down

I’m trying to get myself up out the slumps now

But it’s like rapid fire when my brain starts to touch down

Feeling defeated

I really needed

A hug today right now

Feeling so empty

I rather simply

Smile instead I usually frown

I don’t know why

This happens to me

Try putting my brain at ease

But it don’t work that easily

I hope my grandma is praying for me

When I’m at home

I feel so alone

No one to call

To talk on the phone

All in my head

All in my bed

I know what I said

I know what I said like

How could this be

Why you keep on playing with me

Tell me tell me how would you do

If the shit just falls back on you

And you just can’t keep playing these games

Fucking with my heart and my brain

Why oh why you do me this way

Hoping that one day you change