(Verse 1)

And to be honest, I ain't really doing well right now

Figured I'd pick up the pen instead of dwell right now

I thought, "Maybe this nine-to-five is eating me up and I need to chill"

But that's when your narrative gets weak enough for them to leach and steal

Sleep and repeat until you look back on your dream like "Was that even real?"

Damn, couldn't be me, man, I bleed to kill

I don't wanna talk to my grand kids like "once upon a time" nah, they gon' know exactly what it is without me having to speak myself

I peep the Machiavellian ways in this evil show

Making it look like they got my best interest

I'm a piece involved in a chess game for a piece of dough

But oh, they fail to recognize the king that they dealing with is Niccolo

That shit is nasty, ain't it?

I'm still an assassin with my gas tank on empty

I should be canned and shipped to Amsterdam

I'm a drug that they have to ban, I'm that amazing

I could change your life in a night if you had the patience

(Bridge/Hook)

I can't see further from my eyes but I still go round-for-round

I lock myself in a padded room and this war still drowns me out

(Verse 2)

And a rebel in your thoughts ain't gon' make it stop, word to Lupe

I steady plot, trynna exercise what I do say

It's fucked up when you aware of your faults

But remain apathetic in the face of 'em all but still moving as if you great

That's why I had to step away from this shit for a little minute

Face the world around me and not box myself within these written's

I had to learn the art'll follow me wherever I go

I don't gotta wallow in pain, I paint where my heart go

It just so happens that it's beating in different directions currently

And I can't find a ease with these bickering questions

Like "why can I only feel peace for a slithering second?"

My life ain't even that bad for me to be feeling this tension

And I'm fucking tired of hyping myself to sell it to y'all

Half of my life was spent rapping to mask that I'm sensitive, dawg

I'm in a crucial state of confusion and agony

Feel like the devil placed me in hell to laugh at me