{Verse 1}

Mama was hurtin', and cursin’ the nurses and surgeons all out as she struggled to breathe

I am for certain, behind of that curtain, he did what he could to fight his disease

So little time, they thought he’d survive, but all they could do now is grieve

Open my eyes, to my surprise, I couldn’t believe that my brother was taken from me

But what did I know? goo-goo-gaa-gaa flow with the way that I spoke

Funny, cause that’s no joke, shoving them tubes all down my throat

White like ghost, skin so cold, fight like Jones, yeah I held my own

Locked away felt so enclosed, for five months down the fucking road

I was cut open, I was stabbed at, daily tests like a lab rat

Suited up in their face masks they played the part like a stage act

Vision faded to all black, I went to sleep and then came back

Every day was the same track on repeat like I failed class

It’s a blur, premature, don’t remember bout my birth

Never liked to use my words, cause I’m rarely ever heard

I got scars that look absurd, guess that's why I'm insecure

Yeah for sure for sure for sure, I was a blessing that was cursed, god

{Hook}

Timeline since nine nine, my life through my rhymes

Applied to real shit, sunshine and gray skies

You cannot define who I am on the inside

No bullshit no fake lies it’s just me since nine nine

{Verse 2}

Reflect upon those early days, in that cage where I had lay

Locked away, at that early age, so I could not escape-and contaminate the whole place, all I needed was a saving grace

Demons wrapped around my waist but Jesus he just gave me strength

So I thank the lord for the life I live, 20 years down every day's a gift

I flipped the script from being ill-equipped, to a realist with no shits to give

Shifting through these counterfeits I'm Emmitt Smith in ninety-six-mixed with Carlton Fisk can you catch my drift?

My whole life I've been taking these major hits

That little airplane, that little toy car, at your gravesite right beneath the stars

Mom and I lay flowerpots and every single year another birthday card

With every day that we’ve been apart, I've kept you close to my own heart

Reppin' blue and yellow from the very start, lord knows that you’ve left your mark

I guess that he answered some prayers, why you not me shit life isn't fair

I sit here and think about moments that could have been shared

Watching you grow, breathing the air, cheer at my games or just seeing you there

But I love you forever now don’t be so scared, Ill see you again when I'm climbing the stairs... for now take care

{Hook}