I know it's just in my head

And the things I've said

Scare me

I know it's not my fault

But you don't make it

Seem that way at all

Everyday

It's the same old thing

It's getting harder to feel this way

I don't want to deal with this anymore

But I wish I knew what to say

But I don't wanna go back

To this hole of emotion

The one that I've been stuck in for years

Holding back so many fears

Go be a man and suck it up

That's all they taught me

I wish had just one more day

Before I lost everything

I wrote it off a thousand times

And most of it was blaming you

For never telling me why

I can't do the things I do

But now that I'm older, I understand

The things you said

Were to help me through

Even when you were angry at me

For doing things I could never do

I still feel sorry

For never being enough to you

But I don't wanna go back

I don't wanna go back

I don't wanna go back