Verse 1

Dear Sadie

I think I love to suffer

College is cool but it's hard when you an up and comer

Trying to make something from nothing, and everyone other

Than you seems to be doing fine

But who am I to preach when I'm stuck and blunder

Every time a cute girls happens to say hi, adjust the rudders

Pretending to be above the others

I wanted to write a song for you but ended up at Brothers

Now I'm just another

Kid buzzed cause of a cup or two of something someone put in my hand

My vision's foggy

I can't tell if it's tears, I'm tripping probably

I know I need to dip but your lips are calling

Then I trip, I'm falling

Into an abyss that's descends upon me

As your hands move to my chest and we're kissing softly

I say "I only need you"

You say I need a different hobby

Than reminiscing, oddly

Now I'm waking up

In a bed that's not mine, and you're angled away from me

I move and you stay asleep

But something's wrong, I move to see your face and then I angrily

Realize again that you were make believe

And the girl in this bed is someone that I met when I was anxiously

Thinking about the way I used to keep you up too late to sleep

Now I'm glad we stayed awake together

Cause you're underground, away from me

A place where you can stay asleep

Goodnight

Verse 2

Dear Sadie

I hear a ring from my phone it's loud

And think about the ring I never gave you to hold it down

And think about the way you never got to hold a child that came from your own canal

Alone in a broken house

But anyway, back to the phone, I know the sound

It's "In The Air Tonight", your call tone, I'm hoping now

That you might wanna chill, so I leave and go to town

To our spot, the place by the orchard down by the lake

I pull up and wait for an hour

But you don't show up

Why do you never show up?

We were supposed to meet here just like every other time

But again you skipped it, just tell me why

Is it because I failed in giving you a home?

Is it because I bailed and didn't go to your funeral?

I'm sorry, okay?

I couldn't stand to see your body in a casket, you're alive and everybody's okay

Just quit punishing me for being dumb and come back to me

I swear I'll quit my job and every minute we'll live happily

Of course, it was good so short is what it had to be

But who gets to make the rules? We'll pass this catastrophe

This sadness attacking me

And I could never fight without you looking after me

I know, I know

Never raise my voice when I'm with you

I'm sorry baby, I just really miss you

Please wake up?

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Verse 3

Dear Sadie

I don't wanna disappoint you

But I really miss you and today I think that I might join you

Before you tell me off just try to think what I'm going through

Though you say it's selfish, I can't help but disappoint you

Some men are only controlled by what their loins do

But me, I'm trapped by what my heart and mind point to

Heaven where you are, that's where I'm heading today

Isn't it selfish of you to tell me to stay?

It used to be bearable but now I'm getting the pain

In worse doses, as I find that I'm forgetting your face

Life moves either super slow or breakneck speed

But no more, today I'll be setting the pace

And if zero's where I have to go to be with you in paradise...

You say it might be worse but I'm willing to throw this pair of dice

To meet you up there tonight

Climbing up the stairs to height of peace and love

Suddenly

As I'm sitting in the park a little kid walks up to me

And says I look like his daddy

Uncomfortably, I say "I'm not your dad"

He says "I know" and then shrugs with ease

"My daddy left when I was in my mothers stomach, he didn't like me enough to stick around and keep me company"

And then the boy leaves

Me, I stay and stare

In a haze, and scared

Sadie, you're not playing fair

Stop trying to muddle things

I wanna be with you tonight

Why are you tryna keep me from making moves that's right?

You think I wanna stay here in a ruthless and stupid life

And go through long days and not be with you at night?

That's not fair

That's really not fair

I want to see you, do you really not care?

Cause if I come to where you are

Just for you to be mad at me

That would be a tragedy, travesty, catastrophe

I need you to be glad for me

And you too, we'll be together living happily

And lavishly with Jesus, wave hi to Adam, Eve

And anyone else while it's happening

Doesn't it sound like perfection? cause if you asking me

I can't think of anything more perfect

Sure I'll leave some stuff behind

But I can't think of anything more worth it

Then right then I see the boy cry

With big eyes lookin back at me

Asking me why daddy had to leave

What am I supposed to say to that?

I pat his cheek

And say "Life happens, we don't always have the answers

But it's never really the end"

And right then I hear you laugh at me

Wow...

Wow...

Okay...

I...pick the boy up

"Where's your mom?"

You're still laughing, geez

You tell me that's exactly what had to be

For me to see the light through my own words and that could be

The reason I'm still breathing tonight if that's what happens, B

You tell me that I still have a whole life to live, just survive

And one day we'll meet the right way on the other side

Goodbye