Cold as ice

On a sunday night i can feel the terror setting im never gonna feel again after i sleep i’m gonna wake in hell with all the demons and the flames so high

Look at me now i’m so determined just to die

At that what the fear really means on the inside

I’m never gonna know if i am happy or i’m not of if i’m numb can’t you please tell me why

I never know the answer to these lies

Can’t you ever care for me just one last timе

Fuck

Maybe someday i’ll look off in the sunsеt and feel all the feelings that i’ve come to forget i’d love to live happily without this sorrow pray to the sky that there is no tomorrow cus death would be better than what i have i guess

Is feeling no feeling the key to my main quest

Is accepting that my life sucks the key to my death

I miss who i used to be

I miss the life that faded to memory

I miss the moments i’d cry and scream

No pain just feelings is what it seemed

Now every day is a struggle to feel some emotion through all the lies that i’m telling my loved ones so they don’t fear for me

I’ll be okay please just let me be

I’ll be okay please just let me be me

I know you get it but baby i’m broken and you can not fix it, eternally damaged

I might just ruin my body and leave it internally damaged

Cus that is all of the feeling that i can now manage