This sickness is growing and drowning me slowly

The scars of my past are what keep me from growing

Will I fall into the dark?

Let it swallow me whole

Seems like I have it together then I unravel in the blink of an eye

This silence is deafening, and it feels like I am

Seconds from the end

A blinding light surrounds me

Serenity

Peaceful for the moment

Find beauty in the clarity

From bitter thoughts that follow me

I am so afraid to swallow my pride

Look you in the face and tell you I'm not really doing finе

Will my cries for help be hеard or will they fall to the wayside?

Back and forth between the highs and lows

I never thought I'd feel so fucking miserable

Chewed up and spit out by my self loathing actions

Hanging on by a thread just to get through the day

I feel free surrounded in

Serenity

Peaceful for the moment

Find beauty in the clarity

From bitter thoughts that follow me

This burden I hold is heavy

The price to pay is all my own

I'm lost, but at what fucking cost?

This pain I hold is here to stay

Hanging on by a thread

Go