Verse 1-

Soul

Searching for new guilt inside my

Holes

Digging through the wounds pointing fingers at my

Self

Memories of stabbed backs bleeding

Truth

Is I became what I feared most

Hate

Towards everyone and everything

The seeing eye is blinded by

My lies

Told so beautifully I

Am a saint in this puddle of murderers

But I swear that

Through it all

Chorus

I always tried to be a better me

To dive beyond what my eyes allowed to see

I know what I've done

For better or worse I’ll cast myself into oblivion

The scars engraved on who I am won't let me live

No place ill ever lay will ever be Serene

And now I wonder

If the worse I’ve felt, the more reason I gave myself to feel

Verse 2-

Somber

Crawl into a shell of shame no god

Can

Fix the miscreant I am I

Bathe in guilt not necessarily earned

I

Just fed myself with hate to create

Hell

Rejected self-acceptance so I couldn't take the pressure I thought I'll earn their respect never

Gained

I never meant to hurt

I lost control

I swear that

Chorus

I always tried to be a better me

To dive beyond what my eyes allowed to see

I know what I've done

For better or worse I’ll cast myself into oblivion

The scars engraved on who I am won't let me live

No place I’ll ever lay will ever be serene

And now I wonder

If the worse I’ve felt, the more reason I gave myself to feel

C-PART

When breathing became a burden

I found strength in suffering

Chorus

I always tried to be a better me

To dive beyond what my eyes allowed to see

I know what I've done

For better or worse I’ll cast myself into oblivion

The scars engraved on who I am won't let me live

No place ill ever lay will ever be serene

And now I wonder

If the worse I’ve felt, the more reason I gave myself to feel

No place will ever be serene

Now to worse that I feel the stronger I crawl out of my early grave