[Verse]

I question if I should be alive on a daily basis

That's what I’m thinking, but I'm a big kid

I look up to the sky and ask why

Why do I do this, why am I useless

See I'm a human, but I’m kinda stupid

I get handed this life and I wanna give it back

That really stupid, and kinda foolish

But that's what makes me human

I won't eat their pills, but I'll drink and smoke till it kills

Claiming to be 4 months sober, that's just a lie I instill

On those who care, but I'll drink at free will, and I don't care

We all have demons, I'm an addict and I’ll say it loudly

As the feeling deepens the night can get v-very rowdy

I sip the nights away, I smoke the day and sadly

The sadness still lingers and I wanna end it badly

I contemplate suicide on a daily basis

That’s what I'm thinking, but I’m a big kid

I look up to the sky and ask why

Why do I do this, why am I useless

I sip the pain away solely at the expense of my liver

I do this every day, slowly I've been cemented a killer

But I'm a giver, I give myself this feeling I'm happy

Until I’m sober then you find me on the couch cause I'm naping

But one day I won't wake up and I can't wait for it

Sometimes when I think of death I get kinda euphoric

And then it hurts more and, and I can't wait for it

[Outro]

I contemplate suicide on a daily basis

That's what I'm thinking, but I'm a big kid

I look up to the sky and ask why

Why do I do this, why am I useless

I contemplate suicide on a daily basis

That's what I'm thinking, but I'm a big kid

I look up to the sky and ask why

Why do I do this, why am I useless