Released on January 9, 2019

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[Chorus]

These voices make me feel like a different person

As time goes on, it seems like nothing's working

Everything I try just makes it more worse than

The way it was before, I feel cursed and


[Verse]

I see the darkest parts of me, nothing close to perfect

If I sold my soul, would be worth it?

Should I go on blindly in the dark searching

For the light to help me be a better person

I’m finding it’s just hard to live in the moment

Cause I don’t really have anything to help me cope with-

The darkest parts of my soul that leave me broken

I’m always in the dark and I’m always feeling hopeless

It’s almost like my life is a nonstop joke and

I’m afraid to go through the doors that are always open

To help me make a difference inside of my mind

To help me feel different when I’m battling inside

All the things that drain me of my energy

Making me turn into the person I always pretend to be

When in reality, it's just me

I’m my own worst enemy

I’m sick of using substances for a quick remedy

What do I turn to when I wanna be someone else?

Where do I go when I’m tired of being myself?

Who do I turn to when nothing truly ever helps?

My perception of life is we’re all living in hell

I got nowhere to go, I'm feeling alone

And when I’m lost in my thoughts

Well that's the only place that I seem to call home

I never knew this side of life would turn vile and cold

Feels like I took deep dive into a pile of snow

I don’t need a savior, I need a way out

Cause at the end my mind never plays out

I’m a manic depressive, these thoughts don’t stay out

Feels like God left me so all I do is me pray now

I’m finally facing all of my personal demons, (yeah)

They tear me apart to the core of my being

Life just doesn’t feel real, nothing’s what it seems

Cause to me life is just one messed up dream

Considering suicide, one of my desires

Yet my dark thoughts are just fuel for the fire

They’re the only thing that keeps me inspired

Especially when my brain is differently wired

You come into the world innocent to leave tainted

Everyday tryna mend a heart that keeps breaking


[Bridge]

Life ain’t sunshine and rainbows, you’ve been mistaken

If you act like it is then I know, that you’re faking

How do you go on feeling like your mind is, is naked?

Negative energy taking over, so you have to embrace it


[Outro]

Using whatever to feel happy but you fake it

Anyone you give your heart to is bound to break it

So I remain isolated, friendless and lonely

Never knew life would be like this, no one ever told me

That I would be fighting myself to conquer the old me

I’m too far gone to consider them (them) a homie

I stay for plenty of reasons because I choose to believe in

A higher power that provides the air that I'm breathing


[Chorus]

These voices make me feel like a different person

As time goes on, it seems like nothing's working

Everything I try just makes it more worse than

The way it was before, I feel cursed and