I don't wanna look back, but I really can't help it

So

In the past I've been living life as usual

Little talks and some actions that were mostly casual

And nothing in particular stands out

But now I feel like I'm really missing out

Like something is not right

Like I'm a leftover

Like I drove and lost the motor

Then I crash and cop pull over (Damn!)

'Cause I should've taken it slower (Relax)

Now all I do is laying it lower

At some point of my life (At some point)

It shifted to bad side (Ba-a-ad side)

In shelf lays backstab knife (Knife, knife)

Can't clear that from my mind (Nuh-uh)

At some point of my life (At some point)

It shifted to bad side (B-a-ad side)

In shelf lays backstab knife (Backstab)

Can't clear that from my mind (Aaahh)

Heads up, check it out (Huh?)

Overthinking what resulted in the cloud I'm living in

Tryna find my way to getting joy I never knew (Uh)

Watch me all night dreaming of the stork of Marabou (Yea, yea)

So what really changed then?

Friends or family?

Place or fantasies?

Girl named Emily?

Life is alchemy

Magic shit happening

Some choose to think that

I'd say it's agony

I'm bad designer of my canvas (Yea)

Got all the main colors fully mixed up

And every minor flaw making me anxious (Dammit)

This ugly palette is too late to fix up

There's ticking timer for all of us (Ye)

And yet nobody knows when does God pick up

When you're waiting for the long days to go by (Uhh)

That's when you know that you really screwed up (Yea)

At some point of my life (At some point)

It shifted to bad side (Ba-a-ad side)

In shelf lays backstab knife (Knife, knife)

Can't clear that from my mind (Nuh-uh)

At some point of my life (At some point)

It shifted to bad side (B-a-ad side)

In shelf lays backstab knife (Yea-yea)

Can't clear that from my mind (Aaahh)

What a foolish policy (Uuh)

Doesn't let stand up from knees

Since perfect life quality (Aah)

Is a mythology

But I guess I'm gullible

Wanna reach untouchable

Always got no balance here

So I'm only falling more

Think the threat is far away

Like a couple years, I say

'Cause the biggest part of me

Doesn't really pardon me (Yea, yea)

When I'm looking optical

Life is warm like tropical

Whenever getting topical

Hits like poison - toxical

Sometimes really getting better

But I follow god damn zebra

Knowing that it's getting hotter

Expecting colder, wearing sweater (Yea, yea, yea)

What if all the expectations I eliminate?

Maybe that's the only way to remain sane

So I wouldn't think about every single detail (Yea)

Maybe then instead of doubts, I'll remain with dubs (Ay)

At some point of my life (At some point)

It shifted to bad side (Ba-a-ad side)

In shelf lays backstab knife (Knife, knife)

Can't clear that from my mind (Nuh-uh)

At some point of my life (At some point)

It shifted to bad side (B-a-ad side)

In shelf lays backstab knife (Yea-yea)

Can't clear that from my mind (Aaahh)