Took my first steps

Not even alive yet

Haven't been alive since

My parents had to split

I just couldn't understand

And i couldn't even grasp

The main problem at hand

So i had to walk past

Livin my life my sis hold my hand

The only one that really understands

Only one having to pull up my pants

Had to think fast to keep on the cast

And she just got another little brother

It meant she had to take care of another

Problems at home living in some thunder

Stayed up at night wishing for a sister

I had a sober mom with high hopes

My dad out the house she was alone

Shе was trying to find her self control

We wеre the only ones who gave her hope

She took care of us before her herself

Focused on my health before the wealth

A single mom three kids with no help

Alone bringin in food on the shelf

Movin place to place find a place to stay

Trailer parks and rv's every day

Erase the pain through a deadly vein

My dad left without a place to stay

Taken by foster care an abusive place

Remeber that desert as a deadly place

Mom off the drugs and refused to wait

Day to day see her kids on a daily base

Mom fought her own battle to get us back

Fought her bottles to keep her kids intact

Dad on tracks didn't try to get us back

Mom had to put her issues in her backpack

Brave face for her kids to think she was okay

I eventually i got my first step dad

He went to prison and didn't come back

Prayed every night that he would live that

My mom met another dude again

Was cool my brother saw him as a friend

Clicked till he got my mom drinking again

Fights and arguements and kids getting hit

Heard chase tell her that he didn't want to live

Only seven how did he think of this

Hit it out of me never said it again

I was crying on my bed then the voice came in