I open my eyes and wake up

My life is not what I expected to happen

It's such a mess

It was fine just a minute ago

I can't remember the right path

Emotional crescendo

I’m falling into bits

Just braced up - another death kiss

And who else is to blame if it is not me?

Will I ever be okay?

I’m trapped in mediocrity

Pulling my life back together is the hardest battle

Losing focus - It doesn’t get any better

I surrender 'cause I remember

That this guilt could last forever

Thinking back

Too many what if’s

Ways I should have walked

Too many what if’s

Thinking back

So many what if’s

Give me three options and I will pick the worst

Because that’s my life

It can't get more absurd

I am dope sick

Don't know what my dope is

Do you see what depression is doing to me?

My soul is homeless

Craving progress

I walked a thousand ways

I'm still not on my knees

I am dope sick

Don't know what my dope is

Can you see what depression is doing to me?

I fucking lost it

Rejecting closeness

I read a thousand books

I still don't feel free

Can we forget the past and

Let life just go on?

This game called live is a gamble - one on one

I never had one fucking run

Thinking back

Too many what if’s

Ways I should have walked

Too many what if’s

Thinking back

So many what if’s

Give me three options and I will pick the worst

Because that’s my life

It can't get more absurd