[Verse 1]

I hope you’ll be able to read this letter from heaven

My monologue is wrapped in a sheet of paper

A sheet they made me sign with a bloody pen

Bearing the fucking stamp of being an orphan

I haven't seen your gaze, haven't heard your words

Haven't felt your embrace, or felt your warmth

The song of my destiny is written in minor chords

I can't play it any other way, I have no choice

I have never seen you in my conscious life

This fact cuts my soul to pieces like a knife

And I remember only faces carved in red granite

If I don't visit often, I beg you, please forgive

[Verse 2]

I have never had a male figure by my side

To teach me how to live among the stupid herd

I have never had a woman in my life

Who could tell me that she gave me birth

I remember that day so fucking well

When the world swallowed me up and spat me out

And I cried, again, again and again

But tears don't solve the problem

I can't even remember how many days I grieved

On your and my personal loss

When I was six, I stopped believing in God

After all, the holiest thing of all was lost

[Verse 3]

I've always wondered what it's like for you in heaven

Although I don't believe in the concept itself

It sounds wonderful, they say: “Life forever”

But no one has the right to know its length

If only it weren't for rash decision

My life would be completely different

I suppose I have a genetic predisposition

So that I might dream of you at the end

I came today to make your graves clear

I'm looking at you now and writing this

Thank you for being here

And I'm sorry that I exist