[Verse 1]

I don’t think I look okay

See my face in the mirror, I look worse every day

These permanent, huge, dark circles below my eyes, like I haven’t slept in a week

They ask me are you eating properly, why you looking so weak?

And you look pale…

Is everything alright?

Well no, first of all, I can’t fucking sleep at night

So you can stop telling me I look tired

I know

It’s ‘cause I’m tired of this shit

And it’s not just the sleep

My whole body feels like a mess

I try to be healthy, I even work out, but it’s too much stress

It’s my heart and my mind

It’s what I’m feeling inside that is changing the outside

And I can’t hide these signs…

Feel like I just wanna die

You know what this is?

[Chorus]

Symptomatic, yeah, this shit is symptomatic

Of the life that I’m living, it goes on systematic

Everyday with this burden, joy is not even sporadic

All these thoughts in my head sound nothing but static

Yeah, this shit is symptomatic

Of the feelings I’m feeling, it becomes automatic

That I end up looking dead, everyday like a habit

And I try to act normal, but inside, I just panic

[Verse 2]

What is this, my eyelid is twitching again?

Just the left one, are my eyes getting red?

I thought that issue was over

What the fuck is my problem?

Can’t my body act normal?

Jesus fucking Christ

Not a day going by

Without more hair falling out of my head

Is this much normal or should I worry instead?

I mean I know some guys bald early

But please don’t take even my hair away from me

Feels like my whole body is under self-aggression

Must be mad that it never gets any kind of affection

I know, and I’m sorry

I’ve been way too much lonely, and way too much horny

I haven’t enjoyed a meal since I don’t know when

And the times that I smiled it was always pretend

And sometimes

I get with this knot in my throat and I don't understand

Like I want to burst out in tears but I know that I can't

Wanna collapse on my knees and just fucking cry

But I never cried since I was a child, and I think I know why

It’s ‘cause I’ve learned to keep this shit hidden inside

So nobody knows how I’m feelin’

But my body not keeping secret

And it shows

[Chorus]

Symptomatic, yeah, this shit is symptomatic

Of the life that I’m living, it goes on systematic

Everyday with this burden, joy is not even sporadic

All these thoughts in my head sound nothing but static

Yeah, this shit is symptomatic

Of the feelings I’m feeling, it becomes automatic

That I end up looking dead, everyday like a habit

And I try to act normal, but inside, I just panic

[Bridge]

This loneliness, has been eating me alive

This daily stress, has been showing on the outside

I feel like my mind’s going to break

I don’t like how it feels to be awake

I feel like my mind’s going to break

I don’t like how it feels to be awake!

[Chorus]

Symptomatic, yeah, this shit is symptomatic

Of the life that I’m living, it goes on systematic

Everyday with this burden, joy is not even sporadic

All these thoughts in my head sound nothing but static

Yeah, this shit is symptomatic

Of the feelings I’m feeling, it becomes automatic

That I end up looking dead, everyday like a habit

And I try to act normal, but inside, I just panic