[Verse 1]

I feel like a shell of my former self, sheltering from myself

My senses formed a cell expecting to sort themselves

But the more I cloister them, blocking enormous noise within

The more this confinement gives my inner thesaurus voice again

My current state of life is in shambles

The defiance it channels when it tries finding a balance

Is striking, you'd think I'd waste no time to start to revive the spark

And devise a plot for the future, but no, and people say I am smart

Heh, my whole persona's a sham

This clever and responsible man is not who I am

But what I crave to be eventually, I paint my dream identity

And pray for people's density that they can't see rest of me

[Pre-Chorus]

Cause I'm afraid I'll push everyone away

If I loosen up and utter what I want to say

I'm afraid I'll push all my friends away

With my histrionics if I let my let my stress dictate

My behavior, cause my hatred tends to drive me insane when it's dilated

[Chorus]

"I said that's enough!"

All you do is whine and whine

About your dad and how you have no spine

To get your life back on track in time

"I said that's enough!"

I won't listen anymore

Why would I console a slacker for?

I'm not fooled by the life you had before

"You want a war? Well, you've got a war"

[Verse 2]

When the patience is thin, there's no room for mistakes

If you're raging within, this anger ruins your fate

All the time you invested into constructing your life

Will not leave any evidence you left something behind

Everything that I did is gonna stay in the past

Everything that I built saw its foundation collapse

All accomplishments feel like one breath away from the prize

I'll forever be showing promise in everyone's eyes

There's nothing you can hope to say to me

To unsew the grain that my father's ghost engraved in me

It doesn't help I can see through his whole chicanery

Cause I'll never get the self-respect it stole away from me

He certainly knows how to hurt me the most

Say I stalled my personal growth deserting my goals

Juxtapose me with my brother, his work, and his kids

As if I don't already feel worthless as is

"Hey, listen Denys, my son, you've failed as a developer

You've no skills in coding despite education in America

Why not try your luck in Hollywood and make it as an actor?

I got a friend in LA who can help create a new chapter"

Hard to respond to pungent vitriol when you've plunged against the wall

Your aplomb could just dissolve cause you feel so despicable

Add untenable ignominy hemming me in

Sequestering myself in solitude again and again

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

[Interlude 1]

"Now we gave you a promise, and we are bound by that promise

And damn you for asking for it, and damn me for agreeing to it

And damn all of us to hell, because that is exactly where we're going"

[Verse 3]

You think acknowledging your oversights will resolve your plight

The more you write about it and make disappointment hide?

You're joking, right? It's obvious the damage is done

Any repair attempt is an endless scavenger hunt

In the past five years, what have you done but chastise mirrors

For not displaying lies generated by your ant-sized fears?

There's a stark disparity between your music gimmick and you in the flesh

When we talk in person you don't ever seem truly depressed

Always smiling, happy, kind, thoughtful, in tune with yourself

Yet in your music you're regularly pursuing my help

But what can I do with your indolence consuming your psyche

You don't want to listen to my input, resuming to write me

More lyircs in a vicious circle of a Mobius strip

You traveled underneath your path without noticing it

[Chorus 2]

I, I've gone off the deep end

By following my vision

And I, I have been beaten

But why, why ain't I weeping?

[Bridge]

Yes, I threw my whole life away

I can't count the number of chances I've forgone

Yet I regret nothing, and all of my mistakes

Are offset by the notion I'm in the place where I belong

[Chorus]

[Interlude 2]

"You want war"

"We talked about cooperation

You didn't want cooperation

You want war"

[Chorus 2]

[Outro]

All I say will be neglected, as I expected

All you do will keep on making my gorge rise