NOT ME FIRST - Intellectual

(Verse 1)

Oh, and you think I don't have the right to be angry

You treated me like a useless piece of shit off the street

You've got no evidence, no validation, not even a brain

To make yourself feel better you make others feel pain

You don't know how many nights I spent crying

Outside I looked emotionless but inside I was dying (Ha)

While I was suffocating you acted like you didn't have a clue

So if this message gets through, let me just tell you--

(Chorus)

Yes, I would wish it on someone

I'd kill you, if I only had a gun

I wanna make your life as miserable as mine

I wanna make you regret it, if I only had the time

I'm not going anywhere, so you know where to find me

If you wanna die, then ring me up

(Refrain)

Fuck it up

(Verse 2)

Nobody even cared for me when I was dying

Nobody even listened to me when I was crying

All you did was stand there and cheer on the fight

Oh, I quit doing this, make a plan, it ends tonight

Oh, grab a gun and shoot me, I'm the enemy

Killed for just existing, no room for mercy

Now do you see why I'm this way? Don't you see it wasn't me first?

But you're just pathetic humans, the real monsters, acting like I'm the worst

(Chorus)

Yes, I would wish it on someone

I'd kill you, if I only had a gun

I wanna make your life as miserable as mine

I wanna make you regret it, if I only had the time

I'm not going anywhere, so you know where to find me

If you wanna die, then ring me up

(Bridge)

I hope you kill yourself

I-I hope you kill yourself

I hope you kill yourself

I-I hope you kill yourself

(Chorus)

Yes, I would wish it on someone

I'd kill you, if I only had a gun

I wanna make your life as miserable as mine

I wanna make you regret it, if I only had the time

I'm not going anywhere, so you know where to find me

If you wanna die, then ring me up

(Outro)

Fuck it up