I Apologize - Intellectual

[Verse 1: Sebastian]

Feelin' down, let me take you on this ride

Heart heavy, can't shake this sadness aside

Wish I could've helped out more for you been in this situation multiple times

Thought you had my back, but you let me down

Betrayed my trust, just looked at me as a clown

Felt betrayed as soon as I asked you out

You thought I was joking you feel no love now

When it was right in front of your face

Could've took you to a wonderful place

Made a vid that was done in mistake

My first thoughts are to run from the hate

Cause I feel no love, there's no apologizing

It's not surprising, all the tension is rising

Dark days we're fighting when we all get divided

But the sun will eventually hit the horizon

I apologize for being an asshole, I know I'm not good enough

I'm drownin' in this sorrow, can't escape the pain but I guess it's to make me tough

But I question if that's even true, a darker man is all I've become

Sorry I'm not the bad guy that you wanted, sorry I didn't give you my love

Sorry I didn't give you my love, now all we seeing is bad blood

And you've had enough, sparked a new dissension just a few months after our last fuck

Got rid of me off your phone, now I'm catching the blocks like it's tetris

Had enough of your tough games, you mad I didn't play back cause you're too bored I bet this

Who you affecting? You feeling neglected cause your behavior is all that's infected

Now you respecting, you felt so protected back when you were the one that I was reppin'

Gave you all of that attention just so you can do all this shit to me

You envy me, cause I didn't want to play your mind games now all you do is give me pity

I apologize for being an asshole, I know I'm not good enough

I'm drownin' in this sorrow, can't escape the pain but I guess it's to make me tough

But I question if that's even true, a darker man is all I've become

Sorry I'm not the bad guy that you wanted, sorry I didn't give you my love

Feeling down, let me take you on a trip down memory lane

When you hit me up, had full trust on you, one point you healed me from a dark place

Just to put me back in it, attacking it, now I got no way to detach from it

Been feeling impulsive I don't mean to be passing it, I don't mean to be draggin shit

Got me feelin' low, you let me down, sippin' sorrow

Thought you had my back, but you left me hollow

There's no love, that's a hard pill to swallow

Gave you my love, you took it where my heart go?

Now it's missing, now I've been feeling destructive and not giving a shit about it

I apologize for what I've done, my dark thoughts have gotten more crowded