Ashamed

By Seaning

Released on March 3, 2022

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[Verse 1]

I am ashamed, I can’t escape this fate

I'm too afraid of the change

I’m too afraid to create 'cause the hate

But I cannot wait 'cause fame is the taste that I crave

My brain is deranged, Lord of the Flies

Got no way but what could’ve I had done?

If I chose to rise, not run

But I row with the vibe and the night and the drugs

Been smoking away my mind and the funds

No wine, for I now cry for the drugs

I would’ve done fires and flames

'Til my mind is erasing, I dine for destruction

I am a fuckwit, lights and a function

That’s why I want to write cause I love it

The guy to say "Fuck that shit", now won’t quit

'Til he got six stitches and nine concussions

Why? Should I call her up?

Nah, get fucked, you’re a stupid cunt

She- she don’t want another loser drunk

Like "Who the fuck are you?", with no clue what’s up

You ain’t good enough, you ain’t hood enough

How the fuck am I gonna break though?

Yeah, I'm looking at users, broken abusers

Hoping the bruises are gonna make you

I got the bars, I mastered my art and I craft CDs

I gotta focus my motion on making my project

The dopest, and grow through the streets

I am a beast, I am a savage, I can do anything I can imagine

I can be all that I need, I am on to my feet

I am king yet I’m feeling grounded


[Interlude]

I wanna be me, I wanna be me, I wanna be me, me, yeah!

Aw, I wanna be me, I wanna be me, I wanna be me, me, yeah!


[Verse 2]

I wanna be me, I don’t wanna preach

I don’t wanna seem like I wanna be perfect

I will exceed, I will achieve

No time for sleep because I stay working

I believe I’m mistreating the CD, the way I burn it

Obsolete? I’m naive, I’d disagree, see, I’d say I’m worth it

I would speak, I would claim, I am wrapped around in these chains

I feel trapped, soon to crack, I feel strapped down in a lane

I climb and chase every ride, every high, I am known to take

Fiend and crave every billy, it’s silly but should I change?

Fuck that! I wanna be who I am!

I want that green in my hand, I wanna be free

I want a key or a plan, but I see the deceit so I scream when I can

But man, I’m right, I am, I try and damn

I rely on all these others but cry when I cannot stand


[Outro]

I wanna be me! I wanna be me, me, yeah!