If I'm talking in past tense

I have lived a charmed existence

Now that change is in the air

Another force that we’ll compare

I thought at times I'd been enlightened

To tell the truth I'd become frightened

By all the things I’ve never learned

And all the energy I'd burned

On all those stupid boys that I thought

Were worth my time and I would die for

I'd lose my head and when my heart felt

I'd add to my life's list of disappointment

He sounded good on the phone

I'd walk at night on my own

I knew that it was worth it

And I'd never have to do it again

I've been having weird dreams again

I just wanna have the one where I win

All the times they’ve said this job’s for you

Some DSS guy wouldn't have a clue

Of what I will achieve in my life

It’s not some 9-5 thing or a house wife

Not that any of those things are bad

It's just never been a dream the I've had

I've got a dark ambition in me

I will be independent and free

And all the stupid things I’ve done

I'll never have to do them again