Phantom Clouds - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I'm down low, always felt this way

But right now, the feeling keeps increasing

Is there any point in doing these things?

So tired, many nights without a light

Left me lonely, sorrounded by darkness

And the memories that haunt me don't do me no good

In a world where they eat my imagination, wouldn't go past a day without creating

In this industry looking around, everything contaminates

As the planes pass over me flying to live and die

It's a warzone outside, my nightmares that never cease to exist

And never еxit my mind, some traumas I've nevеr experienced

But I've seen vividly, 'cause death doesn't lie

[Chorus]

From the phantoms to my

In the search of the biggest clouds

Staying under looking up to the rain that falls

An overcast loving outcast

Fallin' and fallin', I'm swimming

Through the clouds, ah yeah

[Verse 2]

Oh, you'll see me dissapear

Into the nothing, I fall back

Never wanted for this to not be another fairytale

Now I've fallen out of Heaven, oh, back to the hell, hm

A carnage I can't help but see, mauled by bits

And people still don't see the reality that we l-l-living in

It has been all my fault, it's all my fault

How can I not stand up for myself? How can't I express everything?

Maybe it was my father that left, but back then I never realized

Look, right now, feel like no one hears me, or even dares to see me once

At the rock bottom, below the Earth, right on Hell

Why can't I be just like everyone else? Why do I always hurt myself?!

When standing outside

Forgive me for it all, I am a sinner

Letting lust, sloth, and gluttony take over me

I know people ain't honest, I almost ran outta tears this morning

It's seventeen, and I say, R.I.P to my spirit (Woah)

Another light brightens up when I shut down, another basement opens up when I forget the door

It is all school, all work, all life, no secrets, no passion, all fear (All fear)

Seeing a steady noose, ready for me in abyss

I want to sleep and have peace, forever

So, hey, I'm just begging some

Let the airplanes fall over me

[Verse 3]

AHH!!! Just got another headache now

Pass me the light, might go insane right now

I'll go and start destroying everywhere I am, saying "forget the world!" in every state

And I ain't evil, but my name's Jean

Just push me off and I'll take a spin

Or whatever it takes, it comes from the enemy

But I never did it, it all comes from the Father, forgive me

I need to rest, take my insanity out of my sight

I can see a graveyard from miles and miles away from my vision

Up there in the clouds, it's all grey, but not for rain or any weather

It's all from CO2, we have destroyed everything in our path

The water's green, I can't see the color in anything

The paranoia, can't go anywhere like this

As the phantoms fly up in the sky, fear stalking the land

All while we were asleep, coming out of nowhere

It's all black, all black, all black

We can't hide, no turning back now, I

Just stay home, outside is a war, we never wanted this

It all goes down, no sun anymore, no one is safe, man

Air that I breathe turns to smoke, as the temperature rises up

Not many options, but to fall off and let death speak for itself

Speaking of stories never told and nightmares reborn

[Bridge]

Been away too long

Two years, can't control myself

Three years, in my first mixtape

Four years, these are my worst fears

Five years and I'll, nah

Take me back to wintertime, and