I've never been on medication

But I think maybe I should

I've learned to balance my emotions

But I don't feel understood

I try to make these words sound beautiful

So you'll listen to me

And I can tell you that I'm just as lost

As I will ever be

I lied to you, I lied to you

Always told you that I wanted this

But I just wanted you

I lied to you, I lied to you

You lit my flame up like a candle

But you burned me out too soon

I'm always dreaming of vacations

But I'm trapped inside my room

Maybe I'll do some meditation

To avoid impending doom

I know that I'm too quiet

Maybe it's becausе I've seen

Too many things I'm not supposed to know

About reality

I liеd to you, I lied to you

Always told you that I wanted this

But I'm not in the mood

I lied to you, I lied to you

I was a fool to ever think

I'd find her universe in you

Spent half my life inside the internet

And half inside my shoes

Keep wondering why shit don't feel better yet

I guess I need more views

Yeah, you can hide behind your keyboard

I'm not doing this for you

I know that most of you are chill

But I'm a God damned human too

I lied to you, I lied to you

Always told you that I wanted this

But I just wanted truth

I lied to you, I lied to you

Made the mistake to diagnose

This marigold before it bloomed