[Chorus]

I held you in high regards, a pedestal couldn’t yield you more fondness

And the sheer fact we were even in conjunction left me astonished

To ascertain that this sentiment was not commissioned in your end

Heavied my conscience with a tauntin’ discontent

You seem to recollect the ways in which we bonded as undiluted nonsense

And me just as a common correspondence

Although I was despondent

I had to be honest

And admit there were times where I didn’t even try to think of what she wanted

My thoughts held an infatuation

To the concept of love and, in turn, I burdened you with the responsibility of fulfillin’ all my wildest imaginations

In the grand scheme of things, our relations were of a brief duration

But what was forsaken in your departure was a lifetime’s worth of rearrangement

[Verse]

I used to subscribe to the notion that winnin’ your affection would persist at the summit of the list of all my biggest achievements

‘Cause my self-esteem was depleted

There were many a nights where I examined the abyss of my soul and located a brand new grievance

Who I wanted to be and who I was were within a disagreement

With your presence, I was afforded the convenience

Of neglectin’ concerns of my self-image and state of depression that left me at my weakest

But I couldn’t’ve been doing too bad since once upon a time, you said loved me and that wasn’t for no reason

I couldn’t love myself, so you doin’ it for me was everything I needed

And then you couldn’t do it no mo’

I couldn’t use you an excuse no mo’

The existential torture resumed, and I could not evade the music no mo’

I enjoy being a hopeless romantic and my childhood conveyed to me

That this frame of mind, I would prefer to not have it any other way for me

But appraisingly, I was not fond of all the other things it made me be

Sensitivity was innate for me

And thinkin’ was my greatest feat

So when tragedy struck my real life, not even my own mind was a safe place for me

Even the most mundane of affairs were particularly adept at phasin’ me

In addition, this inkling of isolation stayed with me, pervasively

It felt like I was travelin’ the pits of hell by myself the way there was no one around that could relate with me

A query that kept my state of peace at bay for weeks

Was would I ever reach the light at the end of the tunnel or would the despair that’s always chasin’ me

Someday have its way with me, fatally

For a long time, it appeared like that light was gettin’ further and further away from me

I put the less hope in hopeless romantic

Because I thought there was no savin’ me

Until one day, I realized the light in the distance that was getting’ away from me

Was only my memories of you holding less sway to me

And to someone who’s been walkin’ blindly in the dark for so long, that was a grace to see

See, they say that absence makes the heart grow fonder

But time, time takes us further away from the places that harmed us

Absence and time withers away the hold that old memories have upon us

Until is it but a husk of its former glory that can lend its input no longer

All the li’l details started gettin’ hazy

You stopped crossin’ my thoughts on the daily

It was best thing in the world when my time with you was only somethin’ I could recall very vaguely

And with all that time I spent reflectin’ in solitude

I attained a new comprehension of my composition and put it in proper use

Self-expression, I used my sorrow to

Make art that were personal confessions and find acceptance with how I felt then because I’m not taboo

I fancied myself a hopeless romantic, because that’s what I thought was true

But I learned that you can’t truly love someone else

When you don’t love yourself

Because they’ll always deserve more than what you can offer them when all of you is not even alot to you