1 - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

My dad doesn't call on my birthday

But he always picks up the phone

My mom doesn't like that I'm gay

But I know it's 'cause she never wants me to feel alone

I'm not angry

But then I get angry

But then I feel guilty

About being angry

But it's such a weird thing to be human

To exist on a planet where people will go fuck you over

And say sorry and expect you to love them the same as you did before

But I feel like everything just got so fucking clear when I realized

I can love you

And still trust you

But I don't have to forgive the things you've done

And I can hate you

If I want to

The thing with feelings is I don't have to pick just one

I can miss you, then scream "Fuck you"

I can tell all my friends I still want you

I can cry on the floor in my bathroom

I can feel all of it and insult you

You can try simplifying the way it is

But people are complex and deep as shit

And it's kinda freeing and kinda sick