[Verse 1]

Look at where I'm at now

I hate the fact that I'm so sad now

I hate that I'm depressed with what I have now

I deserve better. I don't think you understand how

Much I'm dying on the inside. I struggle and it's hard for me

To push through. What I'm going through is so bizarre to me

Growing up, never in my life thought I'd be this way

Never had problems. Wish it didn't have to be this way

Blame it on the people and the world who started all of this

I wear my heart on my sleeve. That's the biggest fall to this

Why do I get trеated like the way I do? I don't know

Why do I feel likе this is nothing new? I don't know

Why is everybody so cruel to me? I don't know

Why is this the fire that is fueling me? I don't know

Why does life have to be so hard for me? I don't know

I hate it every bit. I'm stuck when I'm tryna go

To get away from all of this. I feel like it's burning down

On me. I just wish all of this would start to turn around

I just want my friends back cause they got me through a lot

But we're not as close anymore. Wish we never stopped

Hanging out. Nowadays, I don't have nobody

Outside my family, I can go to. Wish I had somebody

In my life who understands where I'm coming from

But I don't. I'm alone in a world full of scum

[Chorus}

I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore

Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core

I am so exhausted like I never been before

I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor

I just hate to be the one

Who's dead inside. I know I want

To open up cause I am done

So let me spill and be upfront

I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore

Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core

I am so exhausted like I never been before

I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor

I just hate to be the one

Who's dead inside. I know I want

To open up cause I am done

So let me spill and be upfront

[Verse 2]

I wish that I can do what I love for a living

But I can't cause I'm broke. I hate that I'm existing

I hate I have to work a normal job just get by

And pay for my music so my dream can survive

This is all I see myself doing far as life goes

This is why I'm here on this planet. I just might go

Quit my job, pack my bags, and runaway

It's hard for me to handle everything that I explained

In this song. Along with that, I'm sick of pleasing people

Who don't want a thing to do with me. It makes me more evil

I bottle up hatred and it triggers my anxiety

I wish I had drugs that would make me less fiery

Make me less anxious. I am such a nervous wreck

It is such a task while I try to put myself in check

Try to look past. I gotta learn to move on

But it's a process. I wish I could improve on

My mental health. It sucks this is who I am now

Used to have it easy. I don't know if I can now

Try to make a change. It might be too late for me

Destroyed on the inside. I'm sick of waiting patiently

I don't wanna give it time. I am so mad

Why am I alive? Wish I wasn't. I'd be less sad

I am so hopeless. I feel like I'm defeated

In every way. Now my soul is feeling more deleted

[Chorus]

I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore

Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core

I am so exhausted like I never been before

I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor

I just hate to be the one

Who's dead inside. I know I want

To open up cause I am done

So let me spill and be upfront

I'm at the point now where I don't care anymore

Killed me on the inside. Now it's shutting down my core

I am so exhausted like I never been before

I just wanna fall and collapse. Laying on the floor

I just hate to be the one

Who's dead inside. I know I want

To open up cause I am done

So let me spill and be upfront