Released on April 1, 2019

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I've got this picture of you stacked on my desk now on the wall

Nailed to a bulletin from a photo booth of us looking so young

And I haven't thought much about how you're no longer my friend

But I write you once or twice, we talk, it amounts to nothing

I've got some pictures of you Facebook reminds me that we had

And I can’t help but remembering

Now it’s been well over a year, I sometimes forget you exist

How we’d talk keyhole and testosterone and the trends and what you wished

It was never about me but you bought me presents like a kid

You were family and now you’re not

Now you’re nothing

I hope you’re happy but I’ve got a stronger feeling that you’re not

Do you still love me? Did you ever?

I’ve got nothing to show

I feel worse than I did

I took off the pin that you gave me last winter

Oh, it's so sad and you wouldn't know it's still in the pocket

Of a jacket I once had

The day that we saw each other

The time before we gave you all your stuff

But now it's in Pennsylvania

And you've forgotten me and I've given up

I guess that we never were friends

I guess we never were quite friends

But I never really had friends

You were the closest that I got

But now you don’t know me but say shit as if you do

And I’m still thirteen, incompetent, and never human

You're so unattached to me

I'm just another kid who you could stand

But you call me family

But we don’t speak, we never would

Sometimes I still miss you

Sometimes I still miss you

I still have the shirt that you gave me

I wear it most every week

But it doesn't cross my mind as yours

I don't really have much time to think

Of the five years you spent at my house

Watching me grow up and hate myself

And telling me your problems and wearing yourself out

I hope you’re well