[Chorus]
Why do I feel so cold?
Why do I feel so numb?
I thought I had control
Where did this all come from?
[Verse 1]
Six months since I had words to write a song
Six months since I felt soul to pull it from, yeah
The Bible felt like a different language
My mind was blank as my journal pages
Six months and I'm in need of a one-on-one
Real conversations with God is easier said than done, yeah
Life a set up of different stages
More than success, what I need is patience
I was so cold, man, couldn't feel the chills
I was holdin' onto things, made me question what is real
When I let it go, was scared to find the man that I might see
Was told to bе the strongest, sayin' you can stand on me
That was damaging
Got my hеad caught up in some random things
No balancing, landed on my face while life was passing me
Gets challenging, afraid my talent end up as a casualty
Weighin' on my heart, thinkin' this the life he handed me
[Chorus]
Why do I feel so cold?
Why do I feel so numb?
I thought I had control
Where did this all come from?
When everything's so close
But it's feelin' so far
I need to lean on One
In everything You are
[Verse 2]
I got a problem letting go
I got a problem if I'm bein' honest
Like to have control
But the problem is I focus only on the things I own
So when God is at my door, I feel a need to clean my home
Dang, why I do so much?
Why I try so hard?
Why I think You need me perfect, not just how I are?
Why am I stuck on my image? Why do I put up a front?
Why am I postin' a picture instead of showin' my crutch?
Cold, more than just a temperature
Feelin' that is in my soul
More than just a funk, it's beginnin' when I'm alone
You can see it on my face when startin' to let it show
God, I need You more than ever, need healing to let it go
Don't know what that'll look like, that's okay with me
I'm done livin' with my heart havin' vacancy
Six months since I started to feel this way
Six months from now, believe that I'll do the change
[Chorus]
Why do I feel so cold?
Why do I feel so numb?
I thought I had control
Where did this all come from?
When everything's so close
But it's feelin' so far
I need to lean on One
In everything You are
Why do I feel so cold?
Why do I feel so numb?
I thought I had control
Where did this all come from?
When everything's so close
But it's feelin' so far
I need to lean on One
In everything You are