[Intro]
[Verse]
I sit down and flip a page or two
My whole damn life is up in this journal
March 18, 2005, I was a happy lil' guy living a happy lil' life
Fast forward in time, 2k16 arrives
I wrote the words, "I want to die."
The page is stained from all my cries
And all I could do was fuckin' lie
I think I'm fine, just drown my sorrows in wine
And take a baddie to dine, or pop an Addy or nine
Thought about doin' some lines, or fuckin' turnin' to crime
Just to feel like alive, I fuckin' need a sign
This music shit saved my life I guess
Cause now I won't ever stop til' I'm the best or I'm dead
Never restin' in bed like I did when depressed
I couldn't sleep at all cause then the demons came in
They told me, "Leave all the sin, you're fuckin' bleedin' again
You need to quit with the pen, your heart you gotta reach in
You're way off in the deep end, your life it fuckin' depends
On your will to live it." Listen to em'? I fuckin' didn't
My soul has some dents
Sorrow chilled, didn't even pay rent
I didn't have an outlet until I found out, yet
That rap's the perfect medium to just yell and to vent