And it all comes rushing back

The feelings I tried to forget

The ones I buried in my head

They scratch their way back towards the surface

What did I do to deserve this

This time

I'll try

To find the remedy

Before this consumes me

If I can't find the control

It'll leave me alone

Yeah I already know

The fire's in me

And I know I've been acting cold

But still this fire inside me grows

And everyone I love and everyone I know

Will surely get burned

And when the day finally comes

When I've left myself with no one

At least I'll know this solitude

Is something that I've earned

And if you take a step towards me

You'll start to feel the heat

Not born of love not fit to fucking breathe

A heat that burns you eternally

And it still comes rushing back

I clench my fists I grit my teeth

And feel it start to eat away at me

The kind of hatred you can see

The kind that haunts you while you sleep

If I

Can't find

The love I buried inside

I'll just shut my eyes

And let this fire die

And be left with ashes

And I know I've been acting cold

But still this fire inside me grows

And everyone I love and everyone I know

Will surely get burned

And when the day finally comes

When I've left myself with no one

At least I'll know this solitude

Is something that I've earned

Pry open these clenched fists

Fill them with calm and forgiveness

I'm losing the will to fight this

I'm burning out while this still persists

I don't want to be angry anymore