(Az)

Ive been suffering a disease

A deceased world

Ive been after a clearer

A clearer fold

I told you that i won’t stay

It hurts me deep inside

But this is the game you play

You won’t let me turn the tide

I don’t know how you can’t see

That im dying day by day

Are you lyin’ to yourself?

Or do you just not care?

I told you that i won’t stay

It hurts me deep inside

But this is the game you play

You won’t let me turn the tide

I don’t know how you can’t see

That im dying day by day

Are you lyin’ to yourself?

Or do you just not care?

(RYAN)

Where the beat go?

Drop it, yeah

That’s how I came, to the game

Yeah know out of nowhere

I sin, still my bars are sinclair

They heavy like martel

I ain’t running no cartel

They in a competition with me, like a carsale

All these females

They leave their details

In my emails

Imagining some fairytails

When I’m here on a pill

Trynna mend up skill

For my head, need an advil

My own thoughts are becoming like Sybil

Thought whatever she said was real

She said she’d help me heal

But took away all my zeal

Doesn’t give a fuck about what I just fucking feel

I’m just stuck on a wheel

Which takes me back to her

As I got no freel

Controlled by the this pain

Which makes me weak

My future is getting bleak

I’m all mentally diseased

Alive but deceased

Trusting but deceived

These demons of different identities

Got me tricked by my insecurities

All my G’s turned on me

Stung on me like some bees

I don’t fuck with no groupies

18 year old with guys who are in their fifties

They spreading their pussies for some goodies

Prolly catching some stds

Shoot em out with my lyrical uzis

Beat my enemies like Hercules

These lyrics are spreading like herpes

My own are dummies of the khakis

More talent in my valley

Than the rest of their ally

Say I don’t talk about my valley

I’m consumed by so of much tragedy

That it has taken me away from the reality

She said she’d be my sober

But just took away my sanity

It’s all about the clarity

Don’t try to be, who you know you just can’t fuckin be

Don’t know my density, this life is an unknown journey

They take shots at me, what am I John F Kennedy?

Mentally in a need of a therapy

This melody might be the remedy

This industry is filled with jealousy

I just wanna be free

Don’t want this darkness to sourround me (around me)

Don’t wanna question myself all the time (hear me)

Don’t wanna blame myself for everything i lost (feel me)

Don’t wanna explain myself to people who don’t care about me, (about me)

I gotta make changes, but ig I won’t be able to do it

Cause I’m just fucking losing it, as I’m losing it

I gotta say that what I’m just feeling

My hands are shaking

My Arms are aching

Body is paining

My Soul is escaping

There ain’t no returning

The light is fading

It’s changing

Feels like I’m burning

It’s hurting

Where the fuck am I going

Am I just drying or am I dead?