AMENDS

By Ryan Khan

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Yeah, how does it feel like

These feelings, they’re too hard for me to harbour

Cause I just realized that I rather make amends

Then to the thinking of making these friends

Cause when I picked this pen

I wanted it to be my only friend

Yet here, I did not wanna go with the trend

Listen, Yeah…

I keep on writing about a lot of drama in my life

Feeling that pain all the time during the night

This shit is crazy

These bitches making it up like a baby drama

They trynna fuck the dharma

Ruining lives, where is the karma?

Hiding it by their lady drama

Stuck in this trauma, feels like I need a psychodrama

Should’ve listened to mama

When she told me they use you for your mula( money)

Now burnin all these haters

Like rollin OCB With marijuana

And seeing them burn while listening to Nirvana

Fuck with me

Might create a controversy like Brown and Rhianna, All they wanna do is just anna

And trynna mess my will, but will my will get stilled? TIL( Today I Learned) they won’t appreciate your skill. I learned this at an early age

No one is your own for real motherfuckers

They just wanna conceal and steal

I wanna hold them accountable for their deeds

Like Ezekiel

Switch

Gave my best to people around me

All they did is just ditch me

And now some say they miss me

Guess I miss me too, but just the old me

Guess I’ve become too cold

Just to survive in this fucked up world

You gotta be selfish and bold

Cause I had been told

All these people, they just fuck around on rounds

And when they are done(facts), you’re out Bowled

All they did is just question my skill

And they want me to stop

Cause they know I can lyrically kill

But when I finally blow up

They will be like his work was ill

I ain’t Scott, but this is Sicko mode

As I got the game mapped out, yeah

Get out of my fucking head

(I fucking won’t)

I don’t wanted it to go like this

Get out of my fucking head

( I don’t give a fuck, I won’t)

Fucking stop, get out of my fucking head

( I like to brainfuck you)

Tsk, get out

Switch

Yeah, yeah, damn, switch it, switch it, anh

Killin two beats in a single track

Double trouble, can’t be fucking humble

I just wanna kill all these syllables

They sit on my genitals

I’ve got a hold of them, like EM with his pencil

Being fucking unforgivable, anh

They say that I’m a cynical fuck

But when your feelings get abducted

By the people who never gave a fuck

That is the time when you, become a spectacle nut

Who never gives a fuck, as I lyrically erupt

Might cause some damage abrupt

Yeah, what happened, what did she do?

Listen up, anh

Switch

You wake up, you get out of your bed

The first thing you get are her thoughts in your head

Thet bled you out, and left you dead

The only thing you see is the first time you met

She healed you, and took you out of a mess

But now you’re stuck in this abyss

Making up your death bed, Without getting OD’ed

You still feel that you’re brain dead

Switch

So now she pretends, that you’re fine

And tells you to go out on the weekends

With your friends, but you already said

That you rather make amends with no grieve

And you just try to make ends as you resent

All the efforts you spent

Cause surviving every day

Feels like a lifetime of torment

These bitches in it as if its a Tournament

Passing judgements but if somebody confronts

It becomes a unjust element

(She)

*ignore him he has an ailment

To interfere guess he is not getting his

Monthly payments*

Judging aren’t you? Wait what

If I would have said the same thing

I would have become an anti feminist? Right?

Your brain is just filled with the mist

Of you being right, cause you want him to apologize Even when you know he is right

Throwing all his pride

And then you expect him to make you his bride?

So that you could ride?

And contol him for the rest of his life?

Well he is done

He is leaving you

Go and ruin your own fucking life