I pass the blunt, but I don't smoke it I just pass it up

Cause when I’m gassin up, I can't think straight

Always thinking about my past and love

(and honestly for what)

I think we live on two different planets

Mines filled with mind erasers

And yours has bunch of family stuff

Problems not reconciled by the lord Jesus Christ or us

We shove our issues deeper down than probably meant to

I sent you a text the other day did you read what I sent you?

I don't think it ever went through, like someone who couldn’t get it up

I'm blessed I pray that you doing your best too

I hope who I was didn't hurt you so bad we can't be friends soon

I know the vision you had for us was better than what my pen do

The drugs had me trippin, spitting the lies that I thought would mend you

Build you up to the image I had in my mind, but by the time I had spent

Too high to I understand what I put you through wasn't what a friend do

Fill the cup up with a bit of the wine, take my time, please, its all that really I could present you, give me just one more try, or don't, I won't deny, my feelings and I won't cry, but I will resent who

Did this to us. I wonder was it me or was it just life?

I wonder if ill ever have that answer

And I’m gunna keep moving forward, towards my goals of building a better life

A life I had envisioned for us, now it just one party less, less stress

But also less love to spread

Can’t implore whats been eating me up, is it the loneliness

Or the lack of a chorus

Take my time, please, I know we don't have much left

I can try to fix it now, but the pieces might be too scattered

Watch my dreams sink into the deepest of depths

The final words, please, spit them out, or live your life with regrets

Hey If you ever hear my music I hope you listen and forgive me

Or understand I was coming from a place of ignorance

About family and what this meant see

I was young balancing my dreams, and this reality god has lent me

Let me show you who I am and can be I really want to make you proud

Not to say you were ever perfect, but without a doubt

It was my decisions that brought our final goodbye about

Now the doubt weigh heavily on my brain

What upsets wasn’t the fact that you left but the way

We separated, when you break one in to two, its devastating

But when you shatter that same one piece

Parts get lost and find their way to me when I'm elevated

So when you see me pass up on the blunt don't try to force it

Just ignore it, throw on this song, and listen to the fucking chorus

Porcelain hearts, with an outer case of iron

Lead, leads lead, to melt into itself, and find a way to pierce the mind in

Take my life, please, and look back with no regrets

I'm better off when alone, look at my smile when I write this text

Listen closely, understand I’m not upset

This is just my way of moving forward put it on a beat, then I rest

Take my time, please, I know we don't have much left

I can try to fix it now, but the pieces might be too scattered I guess

Look in to my eyes see no bloodshot, and filled with no stress

Made my past in my past, and with my situation better

I guess the final part I'm going to write about how I'm doing now

I guarantee when I make it this song is going to come out somehow

Though my heart is varying, marrying ideas of who we were is harmful

Karmas not a bitch, we just make the same mistakes and that's our fault

I'm a changed person, I live my life to higher standards

I just make verses, verses taking purses and lying myself backwards

I'm happy as can be and my family supports me though and through

I love you all to death, and that's including my friends that keep me cool

I would never take my life, its just helps to release some stress

Suicidal ideation, invisible shotguns to the chest

Invisible blunts to the head, lyrical jumps, spiritual death

Then spiritual revive, taking the time to call my ego back after my ego left

Thanks for listening