I'm at the bottom

Here I lie at the bottom of this pool of self-destruction

It's pitch black, the surface is nowhere in sight

Got too close to the edge this time

I turned my back on everyone

Abandoned all I care for most in life...

I'm at the bottom

Reaching, pleading, God please save me

My excuses have run out

Now it's clear which path to fear

It's just too late now...

I'm at the bottom

I recall taking off integrity

Jumping in the shallow end of pleasure full of others like me

The I ran along the slippery edge of deceit

Until I slipped and hit my head on the way down...

I'm at the bottom

Reaching, pleading, God please save me

My excuses have run out

Now it's clear which path to fear

Which path brings tears now...

I'm at the bottom

What have I done?

What have I become?

A rotting empty vessel, locked from the inside

Will I survive? Can I revive?

Will I unlock my heart and change this time?