I was an unanswerable mess

Drunk on a house red

Pushing all buttons that I could get

My bitter hands upon

Masochist and kisses

All these irrational wishes

I wish I'd known what i know now

Fathers would flock to the soles of my feet

Charming and sinister

Latching onto some false sense of maturity

They thought I was better

But while the south was burning

I spent a decade learning

How to be thinner

And shallow

And bored, oh

Here I am

Healing my words

Hyper-aware of all that I have heard

Can you forgive me, love?

I was just foolish and young

So intent on growing up

I don't have etiquette

Well-crafted excuses

For wasting the best years of my life

All that you have to say

Accusations thrown my way

I deserve everyone

I made no attempt to right my wrongs

Left it up to you to

Air the dirty laundry

Do the dirty work

Pick up after my whirlwind childhood

Watch the left pass uneventfully

Rush through sentimental memories

And now I'm not sure where I am

Not sure how I came to be

Must have got a bit detached

Learning every day to just be

I'm not sure where I am

Not sure how I came to be

Must have got a bit detached

Learning every day just to be

I was an unanswerable mess

Drunk on the house red