[Verse 1]

The first boy I kissed was in a close friend's pool

A bet from the boys, thank God he pulled through

He got thumps on the back, I felt uneasy with that

And walked home, touching my lips like a bruise

The first guy I let touch my skin with more than his eyes

Left it with ghosts I still speak to at night

That say I wasn't strong enough for what I thought was tough love

And years later, I learned it wasn't fine

[Verse 2]

I used to love the way all choirs sound

But something about them's different now

See, the church, it just claims too many these days

My friends' lives wеre worth less than their gowns

Bеing judged from the pews through stained-glass art

At my faith flailing like a flag at half-mast

But with young boys unsafe and the unjust ordained

I won't pray to dusty pages of the past

[Verse 3]

I'd like to believe there's more than just us

I'm an atheist who enjoys the stars

Not the ones in magazines my mother reads but never keeps

Sometimes, I mumble prayers in my sleep

I used to be scared of midnight silhouettes

That my coat rack was a murderer standing by my bed

But these days, I'm so lonely, instead of a scream

I'd probably ask him to hold me instead