[Intro]

Yeah I'm for real

And that's that soldier shit you know what I'm saying

D. Major, baby

You know what I'm saying, Rod Wave

Sometimes, think about that shit

[Verse]

Now this one for the pain that I felt over the years

This shit ain't been the same ever since a nigga was lil'

Been too much on my brain make me wanna shed a tear

I be tripping, reminiscing but I'm thankful I'm still here

And I'm so misunderstood this that real soldier shit

I never thought I'll see the day where I could go legit

I was just on the stroll with my cuzzo tryna flip

Sell a O in 30 minutes he said 'You need more than this' cause we swangin'

Better have your fire, I got my fire, this shit get dangerous

I won't tell no lie before I die I'll go out banging

Just tryna survive but this the life of a gangster

It be hard to believe that I made it this far

Made it when it was raining, boy that shit there left me scarred

Often reminiscing about Deja, that shit hurt me to my heart

Blood drove my auntie crazy cause she died right in her arms

And I made it to the funeral but wishing that I didn't

I been dreaming about that casket ever since I seen her in it

I ain't tryna see no casket, I ain't tryna see no sentence

My bitch don't understand me and my family in they feelings

They say I might win a Grammy fuck a Grammy I need a million

It hurt me that I hurt you can't believe the way I did you

I really thought that we'd be married, move away and have some children

And I can't even explain it, that shit be crazy

[Chorus]

And I'm so misunderstood if I could, then I would

But I don't get it, I admit it

Pain that I'm feeling, make me wanna cry sometimes ooh

It make me wanna cry sometimes yeah uh

And I'm so misunderstood, if I could then I would

But I don't get it, I admit it while reminiscing

It make me cry sometimes, ooh oh

Lord knows I cry sometimes

[Outro]

That real soldier shit though, you know that-that

That pain shit don't go no where like you know what I'm saying

That part be temporary, but it still be hard

But sometimes I be in my feelings about this shit

I'm forever a soldier that's soldier life, you know I'm saying

Thug to the bone, you know I'm saying