[Verse]

I was thinking I should talk about us

I know we've got a past, there's nobody like us

First name 'Rocky', N my last name 'Phase'

No scratch that, first name 'Crazy' my last name 'Ex'

Lately I've been moving a lot

I heard you've been asking my last known address

I know we lost touch, I've been working a lot

I figured if time's really money

Then am hoping that the universe pays interest

For every little second I invest

N I really want to stop but I can't quit

Feeling like killing everybody that I hang with

Let's talk about music and everything it's taken from me

My thoughts get loud, don't touch me am autistic

I got another person who stays in my head

N He is drawn to the violence

I want the peace, I want the silence, you should be quiet

It's never been easy to be me, that's the excuses I'd give me

When I want to visit, then you say you're busy

A young Mr. Gatsby

I did it for Daisy but I cannot run from my destiny

I'm insecurity driven N that must be something you don't want to know

But let's talk about that

I've got a jealousy trait, I fell in love with you quickly

I feel like you don't know the real me

So I had to leave you before you can leave me

They should have told me that irony might be irrelevant

Can you show me your scar, Shout out to Simba

I wanted the pride but it came with the prejudice

N That's how I met my Elizabeth

[Chorus]

I Finally breathe, I want to be free

I had a dream, I wanted to win

You told me to give, Everything

If I decided to leave, would you cry over me

Baby I'm fade up, fade up fade up

Straight up

I wish I was better better, better, better

Baby I'm fade up, fade up, fade up

Straight up

I wish I was better, better, better, better

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I'm never close with my dad but we never talk about that

I'm never close with my brothers

I feel like they counting on me when it matters

I wish I can say I'm in touch with my manners

But mostly I'm keeping the bad ones

Half of my relatives never approve of my lifestyle

They've set the standards

But I never needed approval, they never understand that

I'm guessing you knew that

It exactly explains why I called you that night

When I felt suicidal

I told you some stuff N you took advantage of that

My need to confess might have been what you needed

I need to forget that I wanted the memory back

Ask how am doing am managing

I'm on display like a mannequin

Did you think I'd be able to handle pain

Is you really like that, I'm just wondering

I'm getting high off some benylin

N Half of the rush is adrenaline

I tell myself that am over it

Acceptance is strength that you're never going to hurt me again

But the feeling is foreign

Ignorance might have been bliss for a while

But you put me in a box then I started recording

Buried alive, I put myself in a coffin

My generation is on the come up to self-destruction

I wish we was given instructions to life

Cuz I really need it, it hurts to exist and I hate it

A lot of my friends in their 20s have self-medicated

I wanted the world but it came with some damages

Remember that

[Chorus]

I Finally breathe, I want to be free

I had a dream, I wanted to win

You told me to give, Everything

If I decided to leave, would you cry over me

Baby I'm fade up, fade up fade up

Straight up

I wish I was better better, better, better

Baby I'm fade up, fade up, fade up

Straight up

I wish I was better, better, better, better