2 years ago I wanted better days

The feeing was awful

Feeling exhausted

Turning and tossing

And dealing with loss

Looking and searching for his living waters

But couldn't find the faucet

And without it

I didn't had no options

I damn near had lost it

Some people look at me like nothing

Some look at me like I'm a prophet

Im really the former

You don't know a man

Til you see the chinks in his armour

You dont know a man

Til you see

How he go about solving a problem

You don't know a man

Until you see the people that he involved with

I said I had love

But from the way that I moved

You can tell that was not it

Pick me apart

Or not

You'll see the pieces fall off

Regardless

One thing that i used to think

Shoot

At least I was honest

But really

Whats honesty when you still been moving heartless?

A year ago

I was searching for a peace

Looking for balance

Everything was piling up

It was more than what I could manage

Somedays i felt like i got it

And somedays i knew i didn't have it

Typically optimistic

But its hard to preach it

When you know you don't practice

But how you pose to deal with it

When you know its harder than average

And everything thats apart of your norm

Instantly vanish

I knew that them days was different

When i helped her carry her baggage

Into a hospital i hugged her tight

And when I left I cried

Man that day was the saddest

Didn't show it when i was on tour

Had to show the people i had it

Sometimes you gotta show how bad that you want it

Not whether you have it

They just see the talent

They don't see the human inside

They think that they happy

A life filled with maddness

Its harder to see the ease

When you go through a challenge

People around me done doubted

The plan i believed in

I think they was valid

I was surprising myself

When i held onto faith

And then made it happen

Shoutout to God

He paved me a way

I know it ain't safe in the valley

The day that you walk it

The day that the devil come in and try to make you panic

But thats just the journey

Sometimes it can heal me

Sometimes it can burn me

But that don't concern me

I know it get urgent

As long as im learning

Im confident that everything i feel in flesh

I know it can't hurt me

They kill the body

But i fear the person that can kill the spirit eternally

12 years I've been dedicated to the music for certain

Every lyric I wrote live internally in me

I feel thats its burning

Imma do it cuz its still people out that ain't heard it

That don't take my word for it

You'll think after 19 projects it's not a hobby

They'll finally see it's my purpose

It ain't none you could say to me to ever keep me discouraged

They done said it all

When they talk nowadays

Believe i done heard it

Hm

So i look around an just to see whats the verdict

Im still who I am

My pops still a towner

My ma still a curtis

I got better days

I found me some peace

My spirit is girded

I got me a wife

I got me a child

Everything i worked for i earned it

You could have it all

But its really nothing

If you don't act like you deserve it

I might not have everything

But i got all that i need and to me

It's perfect