[Verse]

Growing up, I never thought that it would bother me

That I didn't have a father, I figured he'd probably call

When he did, he just offered an apology

And said he comin' home you didn't have to lie to me

I was just thinking hopefully

For seven years, man, you never even spoke to me

I was nine, what the fuck was I supposed to think?

That's probably why I don't let anyone get close to me

'Cause they can up and leave with no answers

Fuck a slow dance and fuck romances

This cold hard cash, the only thing I hold hands with

But you are the reason I believe in my purpose

I had to make moves to prove to myself that I deserve this

Lookin' in the mirror like ain't nobody perfect

But when your own dad don't want you, it's easy to feel worthless

All I gotta say is thank God for my momma

If it wasn't for that woman, if it wasn't for that

Women I'd be caught up in the drama with my stepdad

Still wish I knocked his fuckin' head back, man, I swear, this shit gets bad

I was 14 on my knees, looking under the sink

Picked up a bottle of bleach and nearly took a drink

I ain't know what I was doing, I just knew that I was scared

I was calling out to God but he ain't never there

And ain't nobody care, fuck it, why should I?

I should die close my eyes and see my momma cry

No, I can't do this to her

Around the same time, I started making music for her

So please believe me when I say it gets better

I know you fed up but you gotta keep your head up

They beat you down, don't let 'em

And don't you ever settle cause it ain't gon' be like this forever

And I don't know if I could of took it much longer than that

But God only gave me that 'cause I was stronger than that

Yeah, I've always been a soldier, thank my momma for that

And you gon' be alright too dog I promise you that

But I ain't no reverent and this is no lecture

I just know what it's like to be living under pressure

Living with depression not knowing which direction to go

Man, you just gotta trust your soul

I know what it's like to be living in society

Everything you try to be is blocked by anxiety

Everybody tellin' you this shit is illogical, improbable

Fuck 'em, show 'em that it's possible

Like who the fuck you talkin' to? Broke through every obstacle

Had to do everything that they told us not to do

Look you in control of what happens next you

In control of your happiness, don't forget