I'm losing my fucking mind and I don’t know why
It's just impossible to escape this hell of mine
I blame myself because I can't fucking help it
Should I give into these thoughts or fall into this endless pit?
I’m just talking to a facade of a therapist
Wondering, if I die will I even be missed?
A never-ending cycle of agonizing pain
Bringing myself down with my endless disdain
My mistakes have taken over my unstable mind
I've lost it and it's just impossible to find
Is this life worth living or is it just a pointless lie
The growing pain of the part of mе that only wants to die
My own worst enemy is only mysеlf
Just sitting and thinking about the failures themself
My life is nothing but misery with no end in sight
Waiting for the tunnel with the ending of light
I feel like I'm just here to suffer but I don't know what for
Who am I even supposed to trust anymore
I'm not just faking it, can't you see?
Can someone please just fucking help me?!
Should I remain in the shadows
Or bring myself to the gallows
End it all now, or suffer for eternity
Giving into my own fucking anxiety
Or will I just be seen as seeking attention
And be dismissed as another fucking failure to mention?
Because I'm crying for help through these screams and verses
These are our sacred curses!
The agony is endless at its self made core
I don’t know if I can take much more
The idea of some closure to the pain I endure
Brings me more peace that I just can’t allure
My life is a joke with no fucking punchline
I'm just a worthless piece of shit without a baseline
Every night my sadness sings me to sleep
Am I able to redeem or did I go too deep
If I inspired you please don’t try to be me
You don't want my pain, it should be plain to see
My suffering should not have spread
It's bad enough as it is, wishing I was dead
I just wanna slowly die in a ditch like the bitch that I am
I want a refund for this life that's a scam
The pain never ends, is it all my fault?
Or am I just rubbing my wounds with salt?
I feel like I’m just here to suffer but I don't know what for
Who am I even supposed to trust anymore
I'm not just faking it, can't you see?
Can someone please just fucking help me?!
Should I remain in the shadows
Or bring myself to the gallows
End it all now, or suffer for eternity
Giving into my own fucking anxiety
Or will I just be seen as seeking attention
And be dismissed as another fucking failure to mention?
Because I'm crying for help through these screams and verses
These are our sacred curses!
WHY ME?!
A Dysphoric lifestyle overtakes my soul
A endless stream of sadness has consumed me whole
My pain is getting worse and it's lingering
They tell me everything is fine but yet I question everything!
I feel like I'm just here to suffer but I don't know what for
Who am I even supposed to trust anymore
I'm not just faking it, can't you see?
Can someone please just fucking help me?!
Should I remain in the shadows
Or bring myself to the gallows
End it all now, or suffer for eternity
Giving into my own fucking anxiety
Or will I just be seen as seeking attention
And be dismissed as another fucking failure to mention?
Because I'm crying for help through these screams and verses
These are our sacred curses!
WHY?!