Every night before I sleep I start to think

Is god up there cause it don’t seem

That

My prayers have been answered

I knew a nigga when I was younger man he just died from cancer

Lord I don’t understand ya

Why you work in these ways

Why you can't get rich just makin money minimum wage

This the shit that I hate

This what made me lose my faith

This what made me think that sellin drugs the way to get paid

Damn

I don’t think y’all understand

My side of the story

They say god made us a plan

Well if the plan was to kill my mother man that shit was pretty evil

Dividin us by color damn we never gon be equal

I’m fightin for my people

I’ll die for what I believe in

If color so important why we the same when I be bleedin’

I grab the blunt, spark it up, get to thinkin’

I learned alot from my dad like fightin my problems drinkin

They say im weak and

Shit maybe I am

I only do this on the weekends

So I can think I’m a man

It’s hard to be me

It’s hard to understand all the bull shit that I see

Wish I could be

Someone else

If it ain't somthin then its somthin else

Someone tell me

Is there any way out of this fuckin hell

I need a guide or a map

Lord show me where you at

Cause i been down and out and i dont know who has my back

Face the facts

I done lost a lot of shit in my life

I’m okay with that

Cause I know I won't ever get it twice

I paid the price to live this life and that’s the way it is

These suicidal thoughts that i been thinkin fuckin hate this shit